To My Daughters

May You Be Blessed Movie: "Sometimes our light goes out but is blown again into flame by an encounter with another human being. Each of us owes the deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this inner light." This is a quote from Albert Schweitzer, but it captures the essence of what "May You Be Blessed" is all about.

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Some Side Effects and Gilda Radner

Just a bit of an update ~

This morning, I counted 2 eye lashes on one side and 3 on the other side.  My hair seems to be thinning and I give my eyebrows a little help with a brow pencil. Thanks to the 5 year pill.

And still .... so very tired.  I'm suppose to be exercising, but by the time I get home from work, I can barely do anything.

Right now, I have the heating pad on my back.  The steroids are gone and the pain is noticeable again.

Although I could continuing sharing my aches & pains, I will stop for now ~

 Well, at least I'm not as bad as this guy......

 

So smile, someone else probably has it a lot worse!

Compassion International

Compassion International

Time does seem to go by in a hurry.  The child I sponsor in India will be turning 15 in January.  I began sponsoring him in 2005, when he was 8 years old.  I recognize the envelope immediately and carefully open the letter in anticipation of knowing that he is doing well and sometimes I am surprised with a photo.  As I write back to him, I am sure to include encouraging words and photos of myself and my family. 

I had a bit of a dry spell when I was in the thick of treatment.  This time, I explained it to him. I am hoping that I was careful in my wording and I would imagine that the translator will help in that area.

Being a part of this child's life has truly been a blessing.

If you are ever interested in becoming a sponsor, click on the link.

They also have a blog

Heaven

Did you get an opportunity to read John 11:1-44 yet?  If you don’t have a bible, here you go:

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%2011%20&version=NKJV

I heard a sermon recently discussing the shortest sentence in the bible.

 

³⁵ Jesus wept.

 

I’ve heard many sermons talk about why Jesus wept. To name a few:  1) He was sad that there was so much lack of faith, 2) He was sad to lose his friend, Lazarus.  We know that God would be glorified throughout this whole episode. 

It is interesting when you can truly bible “study” … dig deep down into the words and think about things in a different “perspective”. 

How about in Lazarus’ perspective?

Check this out…. Have you ever thought about Heaven and what it is like? How beautiful. How peaceful and loving. How marvelous.  Most importantly, the fact that in Heaven, we are in the midst of our Holy God.  Jesus knew that he was about to pull Lazarus back to earth, back to his earthly body and back from the embrace, protection and love of God.  Plus, Lazarus would have to die again when it was time to go back home to be with our Lord.

 

That would make me cry too.

It had never occurred to me and I just wanted to share this with you. 

I love imagining Heaven.  Two more things to share.  First, take a look at http://www.akiane.com/store/ This girl is now 18 and she began art at the age of 4.  God has truly given her a gift and I adore all her paintings.  Especially those she paints of Heaven.  Her poems are very thought-provoking as well.

 

I Can Only Imagine by Mercy Me

 

²⁵ Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. ²⁶ And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?”

 

3 Little Babies

Hi all,

Just a bit of an update . . . Sunday, I really jarred myself when I fell.  Let's just say: kitten + stairs and middle of the night = tumble.  It mainly pained my left leg.  Oh mercy me!

Momma cat had taken the 3 little babies somewhere for the last 10 days and we couldn't find them until yesterday.  In our garage!

 

This morning, my dog was doing her high pitched whine, so I turned on the porch light and sure enough, the little gray one was on our porch.  I threw on my coat and took the flash light out to find the others, but didn't find them.  I took off for work and Matt called later that the other two were in the bushes out front.  He brought them up and watched over them.  Momma cat seemed to ignore them and they tumbled over the porch a few times.  They are so wobbly when they walk .... like walking on ice.

I came home around 10:30 (vacation) and came up with a game plan.   We fit the cat station inside of a big plastic tub.  Momma could jump in and out, but the babies couldn't.  Nice and snug.  The weather is getting colder and we hope to find homes for them very soon.  Today, we bought little kitten bottles and food to begin weening them. 

By weening them, we can take her to get fixed and not worry about the anesthesia in her system and in her milk. 

Living in the Moment

What does it mean "Living in the moment" opposed to "Living for the moment" ?

Find out here at Christian Working Woman

Planning

Well, I went through the templates and for now, picked this one.  It doesn't allow a header or footer and it hides the gadgets.  Not sure I'm going to keep it yet. 

I was pondering on what to incorporate into my writings now that treatments have slowed down.  Figured out that I want to stay true to the title "Living in the Moment".  I want to write about whatever is on my mind on any given day and perhaps share some word of God studies that have intrigued me. 

Colorado

Maybe I can share some short stories or photography tips ... maybe just share things from my heart.

Writing is a joy to me. 

Next topic: John 11:1-44

Don't have a bible? http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John%2011%20&version=NKJV

Until next time ~

Today's Herceptin

This morning was my Herceptin (every 3 weeks).  Nurse Traci took care of me today.  I will miss these angels when my treatments are done. Traci mentioned a new chemo that is taken with Herceptin called Perjeta.  As with all drugs, this has some dozy side effects.

I've missed some work this week as I was overly-fatigued and then yesterday I thought I caught a germ.  Today, I made it to work after chemo and just getting through the day.

Definitely glad it is Friday!

Blessings to you and yours ~

More Kitties!

I have NO idea why it took momma cat so long to bring her kitties up to the safety of our front porch.  First, it was the white one (previous post) in the morning. Then later that evening, the gray kitten was laying next to the white one!  The following morning, the orange one was laying with the other two. 

We figure they are two weeks old.

Free kittens! Any takers?

Another Kitty

Check out my sister's re-design by merging 3 of her blogs into one fantastic, beautiful, informational site! http://teachteenparents.blogspot.com/  Very creative Christie.

Heather, where is your blog??? well, I might take you up on the research items from pininterest and such.  I'm looking for a neat thingy-a-bob to hold my earrings.  (hope school is going well for you!)

So, about the time we brought the two kitties in from outside, the momma showed up skinny again.  We figure she gave birth around Sept 21.  We looked everywhere for the litter, even thinking they were under our front porch.  Couldn't find them.  Lots of raccoons have been stalking our property.

Today, Momma brought her one and only on the front porch inside the carpeted kitty play station.   

It is all white and barely has it's eyes open.

Momma trusts us ... now we need to come up with some $$ to get her fixed. She is a neighborhood stray.

Still thinking about what to do with my blog .....

Time for a Re-Design

Next week is my Herceptin. After that, I'll wait 3 weeks and do it again.  Besides the chemo drip and a few back issues, my intense journey with breast canSURVIVE is winding down. 

Writing this blog has been very therapeutic and I love sharing my photos and thoughts (not sure if anyone cares to read them!)

So, what's next?

Well, I've been thinking that there are other things in my life that interest me and I don't always have to (or want to) talk about canzer.  That can get boring.

I'm thinking about getting creative with the design and figure out how to segue into another topic, yet keep the information (history) in tack.  I will plan it out and organize it and then introduce it .....

For those of you who know me, do you have any suggestions on topics?  Or, has this venue played itself out?

It's October!

As I turn the calendar page to another month, I again reflect upon the last 11 months.  Most of it seems like a blur, but not when you are going through the thick of it.  There were some dark moments not so long ago.  But they have faded and are but dim memories.  None that I ever want to relive again.

I love capturing Reflections

Fall is my favorite season.  God's voice whispers to my heart as my eyes take in the colors that are so alive, so vivid. I want to stay inside the frame and bypass winter. If only I could.

Well, I'm finishing up the regiment of steroids .... wondering if I am going to get more "manly" between that and the estrogen blockers .... (just kidding).  My back is still giving me fits, but I am fighting back.

Jackie, my ball is IN USE!

Next week is my Herceptin.  I'm not scheduled to see any doctors until January.  No upcoming tests.  Weird.

I'm losing a little bit of my "expression" again.  Have to pencil in some brows. Must be an effect from the Arimidex (Anastrozole).  I'm not concerned about it. After everything else .....

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. Have you had your mammogram yet?

Motherhood

I had my first hair cut today! Ashley did a great job of shaping it so I don't look so scruffy.  She is expecting a baby in about a month and it must be hard to be on her feet all day.  I told her my "baby" turned 26 today!  Thinking of pregnancy, I began to think about the whole experience.  I don't ever want to forget. 

Baby dropped and is position - 26 years ago

I do wish I would have done some things differently as a mother.  But I sure do love 'em ~

Birth. Death. The world keeps spinning. Life goes on. What are you doing each day you have breathe? Are you loving deeply? Are you making a difference? Do you have joy? What about peace? Count your blessings .... I'm sure you have many.

MRI Results on my Back

The doctor came flying in the room (as usual) and said "No Cancer!!"  I just stared at her as my mind tried to register what she was talking about. Not once did I think of the word when I was getting the MRI on my back.  But to think, she was .... it's true, everything that gets tested will always have an underlying alert.

So, what are the results?

Trouble in the L4-L5 S1 area.

A pinched nerve, herniated disk, nerve roots, spinal stenosis.  I think I have some studying to do.  Treatment: steroids and some serious exercise for the back.  Sis, I need to blow up the ball.

At least I'm not crazy .... well, that's still debatable.

I will survive this too ~



Two More Additions

This morning we got up for church and I got a "jump" start to my day.  I pulled the shower curtain aside and to my shock (and horror) there were two wolf spiders side by side.

The size of camels ... I mean half dollars

 

Matt! I know you don't like spiders any more than I do, but bring your big shoes and get 'em!  Trust me, I was looking EVERYWHERE all morning getting ready.  Now, how DO they get in the house?  Beats me ~

 

The weekend went by fast again.  I'm getting ready for a short nap, but wanted to post some happenings.

 

Remember the little ones that were born in our garage?  Well, husband has been feeding them, petting them, naming them

 

So, you know what I'm going to say next ....

 

Yep, they are in the tub right now getting bathed.  Say hello to

 

Blue





Muffin (as in Rag-a-muffin)




Here's the momma

If you read the tab "All About Me", you will see our motley crew.  We are a sucker for strays.....

Dem Bones

The hip bone's connected to the back bone
The back bone's connected to the neck bone,
The neck bone's connected to the head bone,
Now shake dem skeleton bones!
Dem bones, dem bones, dem dry bones.....

For some reason, I had this song going around in my head as I waited for the results of my bone density test. 

After chemo this morning, I made my way to Doc Esther to get the results of the bone test and the echo.  Echo is fine enough..... my back is another story. There were a lot of numbers running across the screen, but the bottom line, it is time to look into it deeper but not time for extra meds to offset some of the Arimidex (Anastrozole) effects. 

Osteopenia

 

 

Osteopenia refers to bone mineral density (BMD) that is lower than normal peak BMD but not low enough to be classified as osteoporosis.

All I can tell you is that I can't stand for more than 5 minutes without excrutiating pain. 

Nope, I haven't mentioned this yet ... you had to listen to just the canzer stuff, why zing you with another issue?

Anyway, MRI w/contrast is scheduled for early tomorrow morning. After work, I picked up the recommended dosage of Calcium 600 mg / Vit D 400 iu / Magnesium 400 iu (Caltrate).  She also wants me to do some strength training. 

 

If I had the strength, I would be doing it!

A friend of my sister, Jackie, gave me a gift called the pure fitness ball.  She uses it all the time so I'm gonna do it too.  I can't wait to meet her to get all the tips she has learned during her own journey.

(just need to get it blown up)

My friend, Sally, gave me a wonderful gift that I keep at work.  It is THE BEST thing in the world. It's funny to see expressions from people as they get closer to my desk ... a small humming sound that you just can't pinpoint! Besides massage, it heats....

Nurse Rose took care of me today with the Herceptin.  I sat right next to the machine that holds all those wonderful heated blankets.  Plus, I had my blue afghan that Jane made!

 

I've gained 3 pounds :(  My blood pressure was a little high.  Doc wants me to get a flu shot this year.

 

Did you know I'm in my 10th month of treatment?

 

 

Bikers for Boobs

Bikers for Boobs of Akron Ridin' & Stridin' Poker Run

I got an unexpected and fabulous gift today from Debbie!  This weekend was the 3rd annual poker run for our area to raise awareness and donations for breast cancer. 

 

 

 

Sorry, folks, not modeling this one! But, you may see me sporting it around town....maybe.... well ok, sure why not?!

Thank you, Debbie!!!!!

Hot Air Balloons

I had such a good time this weekend with Megen.  I was thrilled to see a launching of hot air balloons (a new experience for me) and she agreed to pick me up and join me.  It was a thrill! 

She started the visit with home-made apple crisp and a beautiful glass flower.

Gorgeous

Dainty

 

Sure were a lot of people .... kids' rides, carnival food, blankets, canvas chairs and beautiful sky.  The air was cool in the shade and we moved up a couple of times to get out of the long reach of the branches.  I should have worn a heavier coat!

 

Working on the full album for Shutterfly .... here are a few selections:

 

 

 



 

 

 

 

 

 

We had a wonderful meal afterwards and girlie talk ....

 

Megen, thank you for sharing time with me! AND, I really do think that you should continue your blog. After all, you have 120 members! (look how many I have), so come on!!

 

Bras for a Cause

Check this out Bras for a Cause: Donate Now for Breast Cancer Awareness


A donation drive began Aug. 1 and runs through the end of September. Look for drop off locations and display areas in Summit, Cuyahoga, Portage and Stark Counties.

• ByAmanda Harnocz
• Email the author
• August 28, 2012

Meet Julie Nawrocky Reis

The link below is a story about Julie, a wonderful survivor from the Cancer Support Group at Stewart's Caring Place here in Akron, Ohio. Please be aware of the symptoms associated with Ovarian Cancer as mentioned in this article --- and tell all your friends too. Take care!!!
http://stow.patch.com/articles/turn-this-town-teal-with-a-stow-ovarian-cancer-survivor

 This is a story about a young Stow woman turning a negative into a positive.

In February, 33-year-old wife and mother of two Julie Nawrocky Reis was working out and felt something in her abdomen that "just felt wrong."

A few visits to the doctor later and experts said Reis had a large 16-inch by 18-centimeter tumor on her ovary. She had surgery to remove the stage 1B cancerous tumor about two weeks after she went to the doctor all because she knew something just didn't feel right.

"It's a good thing I went," said Reis, who is now cancer free after surgery and six rounds of chemotherapy. "It sucks overall but, cancer doesn't have to be a death sentence anymore ... but early detection is key. The problem is it isn't easy to detect the warning signs."

Take a look at a list of possible symptoms and signs including:

Teach2Blog

Isn’t my sister awesome! Brilliant! Creative! I think I will interview her and ask how many blogs she has .... wanna guess? Come on, dare ya :)

http://www.teach2blog.com/

Update on Bone Density Test

Today, I received a call from the oncologist office requesting to see me next week. 

"Oh...why?"
"We received your bone density test and she wants to discuss it with you," she said.
"Is it bad?" I asked.
"No, just early detection of bone loss."

I know better than to ask more specific questions of the staff, as they are "not supposed to" answer medical diagnosis.

Since I have my Herceptin drip next Thursday 9/20, I made it for right after.  It will be a long morning as I'm sure I was squeezed into the schedule book. 

Forgot to mention that they did my height measurement for the test as well and all this time I thought I was 5'5" .... that has now changed to 5' 4-1/2" !!

Nothing to panic about

I'm as cool as a cucumber ~

On day two of wearing a Pedometer ~ the overall goal is to walk 10,000 steps a day (at least that is what we all SHOULD do).  I set my for 5,000 as I know I will need to gradually get into this.

I wheel my office chair to the printer

Day one: 2547 strides (started tracking late in the morning)
Day two: 5027 strides (took it off once I settled in at home and have the laptop on my lap)

Sis and I walked a bit around her beautiful neighborhood today.  First, we took mom out to dinner....

Baby steps ~

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Came across this video of one of my favorite songs.  In a place called Kumarakom by a local potter

Echo & Bone Density Tests

Early Monday morning, I arrived for my echo.  This is done to monitor my heart while on Herceptin.  (search Herceptin for other posts).  The technician was the same one I had in May and we picked up where we left off....she seemed to remember me from last time.  And I remember her and asked for updates in specific areas of her life.

After I left, I gave her a hope bracelet to wear ~

Then, I made my way downstairs for the bone density tests.  That was VERY easy compared to everything I have been through! 

I didn't have to take my clothes off ~

Chris was right in that you should use the same machine that you start with for future bone density tests.  They are unable to load data from one machine to a different machine and therefore, cannot compare the info.  (I think I got that right)

My doctor should receive my results for both tests in about 48 hours.
I don't anticipate any negative results.

I'll keep you posted.

Shutterfly

Call me BUTTER, I'm on a roll .....

Received a free 8x8, 20 page book from Shutterfly with just a few short days to make it before the discount expired. (A gift for the 84 page book I just ordered).

Just finished it and placed an order!

Not the best I've done, but I have never made one under 20 pages before and that is HARD to pick your favorites and make them FIT.

So, what else can I do but create a SERIES ....

 

tonight was Book One!

I love Shutterfly ~

Stand up 2 Cancer ~ Launch a Star

From Cousin Holly ~

Good morning family,
As I sat and watched the Stand up 2 Cancer special on Friday, I donated. It then gave me an option to launch a star. So, I did. So Carol, this is for you! For your bravery in the face of this trying time. You are an inspiration to me and I love you. God Bless!!

Thank you for launching a star in the SU2C Constellation. You can visit Carol's star and invite friends to add to your tribute at:
http://constellation.standup2cancer.org/35855?launch=1

Thank you for honoring a loved one while supporting cutting edge collaborative cancer research


Holly, God has blessed us as cousins.  I'm SO grateful.  Even though our neighborhoods are in a different state, we will have eternity to catch up on ol' times.  Then, again, who wants to live life in the past!?  My humble thanks to you for thinking of me! I'm so honored ~ Oceans of love, Carol 

Rachel, Holly, Carol - 1960's
oh my



Prayer Request

As it sometimes happens, this is from a friend of a friend of a friend.....

Posted 9-11-2012

Hey all!!!  I have a favor to ask.  I have told y'all about my friend Shea and how she has had colon cancer (about 2 years ago) and is now pregnant.  Well she had surgery early on in her pregnancy to remove a recurrence of her colon cancer that was found in her ovary area....well she went to the OB last week because of some spotting issues and because of history they decided to biopsy a couple of places.  They said baby looked great.  The biopsy results came back on Friday and showed abnormal cells in her cervix.  This could mean cancer has already formed a mass or it could be the cancer starting to form. They are saying it's another recurrence of her colon cancer. Either way the doctors have decided it's best to deliver her baby at earliest 28 weeks (that would be next week Wednesday 9-19) or I think the longest they are willing to wait is 30 weeks.  She most likely will be under sedation because they are talking about performing a hysterectomy while she is under.  She goes in tomorrow for an MRI to give the docs an idea of what they will find on delivery day.  Please be praying for no tumor, protection for her body from this nasty cancer and protection for that sweet baby growing strong inside her.  She will most likely start chemo after her c-section scar heals.  I love her to death and I would greatly appreciate you praying for her.  Please feel free to mention her to your prayer groups if you would like.  Thank you all very much!!!!

Tara

Breast Cancer Progress Gallery

My husband was working on a school project and came across this.

http://www.kendalls3d.com/breast_cancer_progress_gallery

 

And from other searches ....

 

 

 

 

What's Next?

A friend sent me the link to What's Next from the American Cancer Society. 

Gonna join!

Thanks, Sheryl!

MammoVan

A successful day with the MammoVan!  We got excellent feedback from the ladies who appreciated the service on the work site and the friendliness and gentleness of the technicians. 

My thanks to the staff for all they have done today!

Radiologist Follow-up

This morning was my first follow-up with my radiologist. (ended rad July 18) I mentioned the pain in my "good side" and, of course, the pain in my "treated side".  After poking and pushing (too hard), he said that some women do report pain on the good side and they are not quite certain why.

Oh brother!

 

I asked if it could be cancer on the other side now and he said "very unlikely".  That through chemo and radiation they consider me in remission (already reported that) and that I will be monitored on a regular basis. For example, I am to schedule my yearly mammogram.  Which, by the way, was when I found out I had cancer right after Thanksgiving.  He said that I should take pain medicine before I go.....

 

Duh!

 

I'm not looking forward to that at all.  He asked if I had seen my surgeon and I told him not since the surgery.  I wasn't sure what the process was.  Since I still have treatment on a regular basis, I'll let the oncologist direct me.

 

So, besides remission, the good news is my oxygen level said 100% on the monitor.  The first thing that is A-OK at 100 percent!  Love it ~

 

He asked about the fatigue and I tried to give him an example of, say, waiting at the doctor's office, spending time with the doctor and then having to "make up" the time at work.  This makes 40+ hours for the work week and, yep, I get tired.  I then mentioned that he must know what I mean about long work hours (as a doctor), say working 60+ hours.  And he said "never", that it would drive him crazy IF HE WORKED OVER 30 hours.

 

OMGosh!

 

I think I must have stared at him after that.  Didn't know what to say about that except try to add $ signs and hours and medical bills, etc.  He does seem to be on vacation a lot.

 

Don't have to see him for another 6 months.

 

Next on the list.... Echo and bone density screening on Sept 10.

 

On another note, I scheduled the MammoVan for work tomorrow.  First time using this company, so I hope it works out well for our employees.

 

Guess what, after over a year, I finally finished my Shutterfly book at an impressive 85 pages!!  Made it in time for the 50% discount. Placed the order and I am SO EXCITED!

 

Gonna sign off and r-e-l-a-x



Ushering in a New Month

It is already day 2 of a new month!  I have slept most of the past two days away....but, I really needed it!  Tomorrow is a holiday and therefore, no work!  I'm truly excited about this 3-day weekend. 

I plan to finalize my 100 page shutterfly book to take advantage of the 50% discount that expires Sept 5.  Can I do it?! 

You bet'cha!

After all, only been working on it since June 2011.  Not every day, mind you, that would be something to shake your head about, wouldn't it?

Lot's of things just sort of got put-on-hold for awhile..... and I'm trying to get back into the swing of things.

Jefferson, Georgia

I love working on projects.  The problem is, I have too many of them running at the same time.  I'm planning this next one .... I've been receiving beautiful embroidered angels and want to display them in a unique way.  Plus, I want to show them on-line in my shutterfly site (and on here too)

So far, I have 25 and they are still coming in from all over.  Kansas, Texas, Virginia, Washington DC, Illinois, Ohio, Missouri, Colorado, Nebraska, Pennsylvania, Indiana, N. Carolina, Georgia, New Hampshire, even New Zealand and Australia!

Besides the elegant angel, each sender offers prayers and encouragement in their card.  So, I'm planning some way to display them.... anyone got a suggestion?  Shadow box?

Ladies, if you visit my blog, I truly wish to say a heartfelt "Thank you" for taking the time to send these out to all of us who appreciate the hugs, the comfort, the prayers and the love!

 http://www.smilingstitches.com/secretangelstitchers.html