(photo of my sister's backyard fence...all photos are thru my lens)

This is just a way to express my thoughts as I walk this path and journey through as a breast canSURVIVOR.

Make cancer mad, just piss it off by misspelling it..... like "canzer"

In remission ~ December 2012

Invasive Moderately Differentiated Ductal Carcinoma T1cN0M0 Stage 1

Estrogen receptor-positive cancer - Here is how it began

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Saying Good-bye for Different Reasons

The past 24+ hours have been saying good-bye for different reasons.

Two Father Figures ~

We celebrated the life of Mr. White and yes, I mean celebrated.  To hear of this man's touch in so many lives was astounding.  He certainly had enough energy to pull a locomotive.  As I battle the affects of chemo, it is difficult to imagine myself with even an ounce of energy.

We then made the final arrangements for Pa. When death comes unexpectedly, a flurry of activity ensues.  There are so many decisions to make and a long list of things to take care of.  Rickie's laughter and caring will be missed and the void in our lives can only be replaced with our fond memories. 

And yesterday, we also said a farewell to my mom as she is going to the Carolina's for a few months with my sister.  They are in transit now.  Unfortunately, I didn't get to spend much time with them yesterday after the funeral ... again, my stupid energy level was too low.  I only get to see my sister a couple of times a year.  And, once again, I had to say my farewells to her and Mel.

Death always brings reflections.  If you remember, I boasted my new year's resolution as "de-cluttering" my piles.  Sad to say that I haven't even started.  But, it MUST be done.  There is no way I want my family to have to sort through all this STUFF. 

And reflections of my own life and how are people going to remember me? What kind of legacy am I leaving?  What kind of legacy are you leaving?

If you want to get to know me, this is one of my top 10 songs.  Enjoy the message ~


  1. Not to worry Carol, your legacy is large. Only nice things could ever be said about you and you have touched many more than you know. Don’t concern yourself with cleaning up those piles of clutter. Focus more on adding to them. It’s part of your legacy and should remain a work in progress. ~ JM

  2. Joe, you always make me smile. Hope you enjoyed the music video :)


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